Episode 53 - Jewels: The Inward Journey of Chasing the American Dream

Growing up in communist Russia, Jewels was surrounded by fear and feeling unsafe. When she moved to the USA, her pursuit of the American Dream ended up being as much an inward journey as an outward one.

More about Jewels👇

Jewels is a somatics love coach who loves to support female high achievers into guiding them home to who they were before the world told them who they should be. Jewels came to Buffalo, NY. 25 years ago from Moscow, Russia.

Jewels is a Mastery Method Certified Coach as well as a yoga and wellness coach. She blends various modalities in her 1:1 & group coaching - somatics, emotional release, meditation, breathwork, movement and mindset work.

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Lindsay Ford: All right. I have Jules with me, and she is a somatic love and connection coach welcome to the podcast, Jules.

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Coach Jewels: Thank you so much, Lindsay. Happy to be here.

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Lindsay Ford: I am excited to chat with you today you have a story of moving across the world, starting in Russia, landing in the Us. Why don't you walk us through that journey

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Lindsay Ford: right.

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Coach Jewels: Yes, I'd be happy to. So I was born into the Communist Russia, and it was communistic till probably I was 20 or something like that. I cannot catch up with all the changes there.

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Coach Jewels: So and then one day, basically.

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Coach Jewels: the whole Russia changed and we suddenly got

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Coach Jewels: exposed to other worlds because we were living behind the curtains. Right? And that's where that was the moment when we did not know what we didn't know, and we could not compare.

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Coach Jewels: because we were in our own cocoon and

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Coach Jewels: according to our leaders, everything was great, so we had a good morale, but essentially underneath all of that there was a lot of fear

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Coach Jewels: and a lot of like not trusting

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Coach Jewels: the leaders, but because

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Coach Jewels: they were also quite.

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Coach Jewels: quite firm in their ways of expression. So most people who wanted to, you know, say something or did something. They were kind of like exiled, and a lot of them left for America. So that's why we lost a lot of Russia. Lost a lot of

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Coach Jewels: brilliant minds in America, gained brilliant minds, because that's where a lot of them went

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Coach Jewels: just because they were invited, or whatever. So and then, just yeah, one day we opened our

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Coach Jewels: whole country to other cultures and other exposures, and then we started to have a lot of influence, and especially from American businesses. And you know a Mcdonald's and all that kind of stuff. Hmm

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Coach Jewels: and my parents and I lived in a small town back then in the Urals.

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Coach Jewels: and it just seemed very constrictive to me. So essentially. I moved to Moscow and also, perhaps what I can share here is that moving to Moscow from another Russian

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Coach Jewels: region was like moving to another country.

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Coach Jewels: because Moscow was very much overpopulated back then, and everybody wanted to go there because there was not much happening in other areas.

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Coach Jewels: So that's why they were very strict with, like the paperwork and documents and all kinds of stuff, because essentially.

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Coach Jewels: the Russian police could stop anybody and just ask them for the documents. And if they don't have registration to be in Moscow, then

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Coach Jewels: you're out of luck. So, and in order to get registration, it's kind of like you have to either buy a property there, which is, of course, expensive, or I don't have to get married to somebody who already lives there. So it was just a little messed up

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Coach Jewels: anyway. How it all played out for me is that

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Coach Jewels: other companies that were coming from other countries? I was learning English.

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Coach Jewels: at least that I had an opportunity to apply, because for them they really didn't quite.

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Coach Jewels: They were okay with the papers, but what they wanted people who speak English.

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Coach Jewels: and I was speaking English, you know, somewhat

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Coach Jewels: and basically, that's kind of how I moved. And then I was working for a company and then stayed there

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Coach Jewels: and continued learning English.

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Coach Jewels: And then

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Coach Jewels: I was also back then

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Coach Jewels: watching this show that's called the Mining World, with Adam Smith

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Coach Jewels: and Adam Smith. He's a British economist who, like died many years ago. But this particular gentleman, I guess, got his name and has his show, and he was teaching people about capitalism. So, and what I got out of his show is that

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Coach Jewels: when I ever move, let's say to America, then my American dream is to start a business, because that's how you know

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Coach Jewels: America lives on capitalism and small businesses and big businesses.

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Coach Jewels: And I was always inspired by the stories that I heard that

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Coach Jewels: people would come to America and have, you know, $20 in their pocket, and then the country of opportunities, the land of.

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Coach Jewels: you know, freedom.

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Coach Jewels: So that definitely appeal appealed to me, and somehow in my mind, even though

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Coach Jewels: I was

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Coach Jewels: pretty much

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Coach Jewels: growing up in a country of fears and restrictions. But somehow I would say my higher self was channeling a different way for me.

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Coach Jewels: And that's how I started just to

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Coach Jewels: kind of. I guess.

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Coach Jewels: nurture that idea.

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Coach Jewels: So I kept learning English and all of that. And then one day, just kind of coincidentally, as I was walking on the Red square with my friend.

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Coach Jewels: So I met my husband, and he's American. So he lives in Buffalo, and he used to live in Buffalo, New York.

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Coach Jewels: and then

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Coach Jewels: His grandparents came kind of from the Russian region, and he was traveling to see where they came from. And

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Coach Jewels: then we had about one year of

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Coach Jewels: writing letters, the actual letters like with pen and paper, because we did not have computer and

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Coach Jewels: we have phone calls and mostly letters.

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Coach Jewels: And then, essentially, to make the story short, so I married him, and we've been married for 25 years now.

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Coach Jewels: And that's how I came to America.

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Coach Jewels: That's it.

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Lindsay Ford: Amazing. I'm super curious just to know, like when that Communist curtain sort of lifted

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Lindsay Ford: what, what? The, what are the things that you remember that that shifted. You mentioned the Mcdonald's and American businesses, but like

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Lindsay Ford: it was there more that happened? Or maybe you can't even articulate it. I'm just so curious because it's such a

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Lindsay Ford: it it's it is like a curtain like a veil coming off. And I'm curious to know what what was that like in reality.

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Lindsay Ford: And it's okay. If you don't remember.

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Coach Jewels: Well, I think what I remember is just that whole

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Coach Jewels: spirit of fear.

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Coach Jewels: because there was a lot of uncertainty

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Coach Jewels: and also

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Coach Jewels: just like, you know, the tanks and just people weren't sure what to expect, what to do, what's gonna happen. So we were already like living in fear. And this is just fear escalated.

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Coach Jewels: And

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Coach Jewels: that few moments, like few months and few years of that reorganization. And it's soul taking time to reorganize because it's a huge country.

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Coach Jewels: just a lot of fear. And of course, people were creating their own stories of what's gonna happen. And

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Coach Jewels: so we're going to be doomed, and all of that because fear when you let it, we're all pretty good at our imagination to create the worst case scenario. Just a lot of uncertainty. A lot of confusion.

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Coach Jewels: yeah, that's kind of like what I remember. So yeah.

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Lindsay Ford: Yeah, that's fair. There's so much fear that comes up in that in those big transitions, whether that's in your personal life or on a major scale like this because of the uncertainty. And you're right. Your mind just like loves to come up with all of these worst case scenarios. Your imagination is just like.

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Lindsay Ford: yeah, just goes off the rails sometimes.

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Lindsay Ford: So you met your husband, and I love that. It was just like he was American, but like had Russian roots clearly, and you met in a like, I just, I don't know. I feel like we're we're just meant to be with the people we're meant to be with. Right. You just ran into him in a square and he, I guess, gave you

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Lindsay Ford: permission in a way to

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Lindsay Ford: move to the Us. Because it sounds like you were already really curious about the freedom and the the opportunities that the Us. Could provide. So then, what was your experience. Once you got over into the Us.

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Coach Jewels: Well,

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Coach Jewels: He lived in a smaller part of buffalo.

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Coach Jewels: and when I came

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Coach Jewels: yes, I guess I

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Coach Jewels: did not expect so. Maybe, like my image was more about.

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Coach Jewels: the New New York City and

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Coach Jewels: the Times Square, that kind of stuff, because in Moscow, obviously, it's a big city, and I came to just a small region of

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Coach Jewels: shocked because the the big city and the small thing right? That was kind of shocking. And then obviously, you need to drive, because otherwise you cannot really go anywhere. And it took me some time to like, learn to drive. But basically, I just started to walk around my neighborhood and at least do that. And I was very surprised that obviously there are not many pedestrians, but some people who were walking here and there.

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Coach Jewels: they would just like acknowledge you. They would just say Hello, good morning, or whatever good afternoon. And that was very surprising to me, because in the Russian, probably also like living in a big city.

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Coach Jewels: because there is just so much. And you really don't have that personal connection. It's not so friendly or so like acknowledging.

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Coach Jewels: kind of like, huh!

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Coach Jewels: Do you know me? Or something like, What is this? Hello! But I started to learn that they just really acknowledge you. And they just really want to say hello and

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Coach Jewels: smile, and sometime ask like, How are you? So I just kind of had my little conversations here.

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Coach Jewels: and even though I was learning English

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Coach Jewels: you know, was working for a company in Russia. But my English wasn't really that great. And also

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Coach Jewels: when you come here and you hear people talk, it's just there is so much slang like.

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Coach Jewels: for example, like, just simple, think like ATM machine, right? Like, I don't know what it is. What do you say?

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Coach Jewels: Just things like that? Right?

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Coach Jewels: so yeah, it was.

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Coach Jewels: I was very challenging, because when I tried to talk, and my accent was pretty heavy, so people would just stare at me.

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Coach Jewels: and then what I noticed. They try to speak louder, because they think if they speak louder I would understand better.

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Lindsay Ford: Yeah.

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Coach Jewels: And we just had a little bit of this hole, and then I would come home, and I would just

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Coach Jewels: complain to my husband. I'm like oh.

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Coach Jewels: I don't know. I cannot even talk to anybody.

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Coach Jewels: Nobody understands me. But he is very patient.

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Coach Jewels: He's he's very patient and compassionate, and and that's kind of also from our cultural perspective. And where he is in his spirit or energy is that

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Coach Jewels: I was more on the negative side. So because they also the culture they fear so. And you just like constantly in protection. And I didn't quite know then.

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Coach Jewels: because now I kinda see where it was all coming from, but I was just more on the negative side, but he's naturally on the positive side.

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Coach Jewels: So, and that's what, especially in the beginning. It would always just make me feel so

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Coach Jewels: isolated because I'm like, you know, complaining. And this is not that. And whatever. And we in Russia did this thing, and then.

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Coach Jewels: and he would just like, always see the positive side and

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Coach Jewels: I couldn't quite like accept that part or receive it. But essentially

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Coach Jewels: it's been helpful, and really

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Coach Jewels: help me evoke my positive side. That perhaps I didn't know but it was there.

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Coach Jewels: So now I'm on a completely different level of it.

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Coach Jewels: But in the beginning I was more tuned in

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Coach Jewels: on everything that was not working and it was stressful. So it was definitely

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Coach Jewels: I had headaches. And yeah.

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Lindsay Ford: Yeah, I imagine it would be so overwhelming, not knowing the language. Not being able to get around by yourself. Completely different culture, completely different way of doing things. I know, even just like in the little experience I've had living in Bali for like 6 months, knowing that wasn't a permanent decision. But

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Lindsay Ford: it's overwhelming, like it's very uncomfortable when you're stepping out of your your comfort zone into a completely new way of doing life, and literally literally

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Lindsay Ford: every part of your life changed in a single moment.

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Lindsay Ford: So

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Lindsay Ford: how did you so? When did you? When did the coffee shop come in.

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Coach Jewels: Oh, yes.

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Coach Jewels: So because we lived in Buffalo, and that's close to Canada, and that's where the franchise that we got was there. So we used to go there and enjoyed. And then they came to Buffalo to New York. Basically, they were expanding to the Us. And it's a coffee and donut

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Coach Jewels: franchise.

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Coach Jewels: but we like the idea.

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Coach Jewels: And of course, back then I was not really asking myself what Jules wants. It was not a part of my language, because in Russia it was just basically survival.

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Coach Jewels: And then you're just essentially thinking about basic needs, you know, shelter, food, air and like, how can I survive through it. So you don't have capacity or resources or space to think like. Oh, you know what Jules want to do with her life.

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Coach Jewels: So that's why, like, from that show, that's what I got. So the part of the American dream is owning a business.

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Coach Jewels: and also my husband is more. At least he used to be more on that adventurous kind of side, and his image of vision of life was something like, Oh, we just get a sailboat, and we're gonna live in the ocean on the sailboat, and I don't swim. I'm afraid of the water, and that was not my fake.

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Coach Jewels: but because he was again adventurous, open-minded, and whatever the stars connected.

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Coach Jewels: So one day

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Coach Jewels: I was just. We were walking on the streets of

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Coach Jewels: and then I went to that coffee shop to use a bathroom, and then, when I was coming out, I noticed they had a stand

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Coach Jewels: on the wall, and it had franchise information applications there.

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Coach Jewels: So I picked it up and I came out. And I said.

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Coach Jewels: Okay, this is what we're gonna do. What do you think?

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Coach Jewels: And his answers kind of for everything is? Well, how hard could it be? Let's do that.

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Coach Jewels: So we applied.

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Coach Jewels: and

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Coach Jewels: They were expanding to Ohio.

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Coach Jewels: and because of that expansion and also New Market, they had very favorable conditions. So basically what it means, we did not have to come up with like lots of money, and all of that, they were helping us finance it later.

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Coach Jewels: So and because of those favorable conditions and also the new Market. So

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Coach Jewels: we went through the application process and all the training and all of that. And then one day we just packed the U-haul.

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Coach Jewels: I just completed my master's degree.

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Coach Jewels: My mom also moved in and had a heart surgery

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Coach Jewels: and he quit the job.

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Coach Jewels: and we packed the U-hole

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Coach Jewels: and we just drove to Ohio.

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Lindsay Ford: Wow!

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Coach Jewels: Yes. Meanwhile we kind of bought a house almost online. I mean, we came to Ohio to look for a house. We didn't find anything. But we like one area.

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Coach Jewels: And then when we came home, we noticed a house online in that area. So basically we kinda bought it online.

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Lindsay Ford: Wow!

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Coach Jewels: And then yes, it was close to our location, where they were putting a new location there.

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Coach Jewels: So, and I believe in October 4. So October

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Coach Jewels: 20 years ago. Yes, it was October 4, th 2,004.

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Coach Jewels: We open the doors to our 24, 7. Operation

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Coach Jewels: in 24, 7. It's not just literal. It was in the contract like, that's what it was. 24, 7 open

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Coach Jewels: store. And

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Coach Jewels: that was quite an experience.

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Lindsay Ford: Well, just the amount of like courage, and I guess inner

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Lindsay Ford: strength. It took to just sort of sell everything. Your husband quit his job. And you just

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Lindsay Ford: bought a house online and

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Lindsay Ford: and just went for it. Like, that takes balls that takes that takes a lot

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Coach Jewels: Yeah, but this is, I guess, when you are

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Coach Jewels: pursuing your dream, so to speak.

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Lindsay Ford: Yeah.

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Coach Jewels: And then they'll say, Well, when very soon. I don't know, so I guess like from where I stand now and how I understand life, because back then I didn't quite understand life to the degree I do now, and I'm not sure if you're like in human design, or whatever.

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Coach Jewels: So in the wounds of the heart we all experience them. In some ways it doesn't have to be like love or romantic. It's just, you know, failure of success, or whatever

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Coach Jewels: so we're constantly in protection.

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Coach Jewels: So that's why all those protective identities that I build up ambition.

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Coach Jewels: And that's basically the whole point, because

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Coach Jewels: the inner perceptual issue that I have, that I feel not good enough.

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Coach Jewels: and I cannot fix that, or solve that or heal that without our solutions

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Coach Jewels: so. And this is kind of like how my journey started.

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Coach Jewels: and I like to take my clients through 4 stages of love, which is, I need love. And this is where we all start, because as children, we need love, and our caregivers are

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Coach Jewels: gods, their providers. And that's how kind of like a journey starts.

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Coach Jewels: So we look at them. They give us cues of how we receive love from them. And this is where that attachment happens.

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Coach Jewels: So I need love.

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Coach Jewels: and then we keep going with that.

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Coach Jewels: And essentially, we bring that victimhood mentality because we're still kids. And we're still in protection because my mom gave me more love when I'm accomplishing stuff and bringing Ace home, and all of that right?

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Coach Jewels: you go through your awakening, if you do, I mean, we all have an opportunity to wake up.

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Coach Jewels: and some of us do, and some don't. We all have different journeys

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Coach Jewels: so, and of course, now I'm 51, and I can say that I'm finally more awake through the power of my heart in the healing journey. So the next stage basically becomes, I choose love when you actually work with your wounds, so to speak, at that bottom level

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Coach Jewels: your childhood. So you open your heart and you work through them. Then your victimhood mentality basically changes to more of an empowered state, which is, I choose love.

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Coach Jewels: And basically, at this stage, this is where I consciously choose

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Coach Jewels: and love is compassion and forgiveness and kindness and acceptance and allowance.

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Coach Jewels: so which essentially kind of giving people a second chance, or

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Coach Jewels: looking at the world.

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Coach Jewels: you know it all bounces back to some kind of equanimity and love.

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Coach Jewels: and we know that in nature

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Coach Jewels: so. And then the 3rd stage is, I am love.

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Coach Jewels: you are a part of the bigger picture and the higher power and love around you. So you have attributes

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Coach Jewels: of the nature within you, and all the nature is love, which is basically the next phase, it's just

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Coach Jewels: will always love.

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Coach Jewels: So when you start understanding that. And when I started to understand that.

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Coach Jewels: we are human beings.

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Coach Jewels: But 1st and foremost, we are emotional beings.

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Coach Jewels: Because what is life.

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Coach Jewels: Because you feel

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Coach Jewels: gives you experience.

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Coach Jewels: and, of course.

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Coach Jewels: where I come from and women I work with. We were trained different ways about emotions, and we've learned to suppress them.

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Coach Jewels: And that's where, like, there is no healing

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Coach Jewels: until we open the heart to heal. And that's why we use our mind. And when our mind overthinks.

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Coach Jewels: this is just a sign we're on the feeling

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Coach Jewels: which is again, we're going back to our coping mechanism, of suppressing, suppressing, suppressing. And now we know the neuroscience and heart. Meth Institute. They come up with new ways of understanding that suppressing emotions is not a good thing.

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Coach Jewels: So, and that's where the power is. I believe that's why.

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Coach Jewels: like I, said I, my coaching involves. I have a really a blend because of my whole experience. But the foundation of my coaching is still going to the roots.

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Coach Jewels: which is going to the body, because the body holds the energy and the agreements

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Coach Jewels: that we've made

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Coach Jewels: with life, with money, with love, with worth, with enoughness, and all of that.

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Coach Jewels: So that's why, when you go to the body through the channels that the body process energy and help people get to something that is

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Coach Jewels: on that unconscious or subconscious level, because the body is the language of unconscious and subconscious.

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Coach Jewels: And that's where we operate the most 95%.

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Coach Jewels: So like, wouldn't you want to go there to receive something that's been sabotaging you, and you're not even aware.

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Coach Jewels: or keep going the same thing over and over again, and then go back to the mind, and mind always operates in predictable. It already knows what already knows, and then it goes into the future of the past, and it's like you never get anywhere there.

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Coach Jewels: So but when you start allowing the brain and the heart and the body work together like in neuroscientists, neuro neuroscience terms brain and heart coherence.

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Coach Jewels: Then you start suddenly, be a part of the whole flow.

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Coach Jewels: So, and I think that's what like our mind likes to separate us from the whole energy, from the whole flow. And that's how kind of like I see where the energy of love. So which is like this big ocean

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Coach Jewels: and the big ocean is always love. And that's kind of like

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Coach Jewels: what you mentioned before we started today.

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Coach Jewels: My whole outlook on life has changed yes, completely. So

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Coach Jewels: if I was.

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Coach Jewels: I was basically a scared child and a scared adult for many years, and never felt safe

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Coach Jewels: because of all my, you know, stuff and constant chase. And I'm constantly chasing away from what is here and now.

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Coach Jewels: so I never felt safe. And this just for a few years that I've been working

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Coach Jewels: like I said, through my own heart wounds and connecting to my body, and also regulating my nervous system that I've actually been building

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Coach Jewels: like that feeling of safe.

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Coach Jewels: And that's very liberating, because when you feel safe, when you feel regulated.

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Coach Jewels: it's an empowering feeling.

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Coach Jewels: It's a feeling of freedom.

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Coach Jewels: and that's the thing.

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Coach Jewels: like we have free kind of come to this world. And also we're free to go. We kinda because our last breath does not belong to us. It's just.

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Coach Jewels: but there's a lot of

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Coach Jewels: trust of the divine in us, right like, here you go. This is it.

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Coach Jewels: Everything is here.

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Coach Jewels: and you have it all.

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Coach Jewels: And I think that's why of this bigness. Sometimes we get really scared, and we start playing small and get into that human fear. And because being a human is is, that's what's scary

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Coach Jewels: in this world.

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Coach Jewels: right? But this is that always kind of dance of your divine and your human.

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Coach Jewels: And if we can

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Coach Jewels: then

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Coach Jewels: you're basically unstoppable in whatever you want to create or how you want to feel.

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Coach Jewels: and that's also very empowering to know and experience that

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Coach Jewels: it's not that I feel free, or I feel loved when I do something or perform something.

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Coach Jewels: but it's actually, when I feel free and loved, I go into and perform something.

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Coach Jewels: and not to say that I'm still a human, and not to say that my heart won't still come up.

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Coach Jewels: But now I have a different relationship with my not good enough, if

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Coach Jewels: that before my not good enough. When she would talk, she would be mean and criticizing, and everything, and I would resist her, and we're constantly in a tag of war.

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Coach Jewels: But now I've developed a relationship with her.

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Coach Jewels: So, and when sometimes she comes.

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Coach Jewels: I also know where she's coming from.

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Coach Jewels: and she's coming from that world of I want to protect you. I just want you to do good, to be good, to excel. But I just do it in this mean way, kind of like the parent does. The parent does. You know they want the best for us. You should do this.

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Coach Jewels: and we believe them right.

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Coach Jewels: But then we kind of lose a part of ourselves.

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Coach Jewels: So that's why it's coming to who you are, and then own that energy and

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Coach Jewels: true self

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Coach Jewels: and

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Coach Jewels: ground in that space

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Coach Jewels: that's liberating.

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Coach Jewels: And and again, just

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Coach Jewels: recognize where you set the barriers to love, so to speak. And again, I'm talking about love that is in that unconditional sense, love that has no agenda.

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Coach Jewels: yeah, I'm just gonna.

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Lindsay Ford: I don't think I have any more questions, but I just want to reflect on something you touched on a few minutes ago, where you said it just basically this idea that you know the very thing you needed, that like slowing down, you're talking about it like Yoga meditation, that Shavasana.

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Lindsay Ford: the very thing you were resisting was exactly what you needed, and I know I've had a couple of these different.

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Lindsay Ford: you know, realizations of like the thing that I really don't want to do is the exact thing that I actually need to do, and would benefit me the most. So I just wanted to just re reiterate that point because I think it's an important one. And I also love the point that you made about

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Lindsay Ford: just like the connection between your heart and your brain. And oftentimes, when we're trying to think through things

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Lindsay Ford: we don't.

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Lindsay Ford: You're right like the brain lives in the past and the present or sorry, the past and the future, and, like your body, is in the present, and your body has all of the wisdom you need right now, and if we can connect to that

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Lindsay Ford: and

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Lindsay Ford: just use our brain as a tool to support what your body, the wisdom in your body, I think we'd be a lot further ahead than rather like, rather than trying to just like logically think through things and try to, you know. Come up with all the worst case, scenarios and troubleshoot, and, like like the brain, can be very exhausting sometimes when the wisdom is in your body. But you can't hear it unless you're in tune with your body unless you're slow enough

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Lindsay Ford: and slowing down enough. And I just yeah, I just wanted to reiterate that. Where can people find you if they want to work with you, or or get in touch with you.

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Coach Jewels: Yes, I will say that. Can I just add something.

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Lindsay Ford: For sure, for sure.

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Coach Jewels: I'm not sure if you or your audience are into the work of Joe Dispenza, and I listen to him quite a bit, and

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Coach Jewels: I remember he was saying something like.

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Coach Jewels: you cannot think as well as your body feels, and I never could understand that, but it kind of got stuck with me.

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Coach Jewels: and how I understand this now.

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Coach Jewels: where I am. Is that going back to what you said? It's because of the body, because, again, if my energy of the body was carrying that narrative. I'm not good enough for years.

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Coach Jewels: That's that energy that comes from the body

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Coach Jewels: and stimulates the thoughts

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Coach Jewels: that keep on repeat. And this is that power of the subconscious mind which is 95% like he says, whatever we've created, we keep creating. It's not like, we're waking up tomorrow, and we're a different person. We're still the same. We think the same thoughts, we feel the same feelings.

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Coach Jewels: So now, understanding sematics and

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Coach Jewels: how to really access that and also change the energy.

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Coach Jewels: So now I don't need to work so hard, or write affirmations, 100 affirmations a day, or whatever. I did that too. But when you change at the body level and the energy is different, you actually release different chemicals.

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Coach Jewels: so that stimulates different thoughts because it goes from the body to the mind and not the other way around.

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Coach Jewels: So, and that's how I now understand

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Coach Jewels: what he says. It's like that makes sense, but that's kind of like my journey has been. I've been following my breadcrumbs of my curiosity and questions that I ask, and then I get the answers here and there.

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Coach Jewels: So yeah, just wanted to add that.

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Lindsay Ford: No, I love. I love that just before you share share your next thing.

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Lindsay Ford: One of the things I just wanted to add to. That was

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Lindsay Ford: You know just what I've learned with processing emotions. You know. I was originally taught like

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Lindsay Ford: well aid. You don't feel certain emotions, suppress them at all costs. But then, like through even traditional counseling and therapy, it's like talk, talk, talk, think, analyze! Where did this feeling come from? But then, the further I get into the spiritual realm and the healing work, I the more convinced I am. We just need to feel the emotions, let it pass through our body, and you don't need to intellectually analyze all the details. And

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Lindsay Ford: so I love what you just said of just like, you know the thoughts and the feelings that are like on that auto loop in our head.

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Lindsay Ford: They really change when we start to move that energy through our body. I think that's a really really powerful and something that so many of us have been doing backwards for so long. And there's not a lot of understanding in the role the body plays in processing and releasing emotions and and healing. Really, when it comes down to it.

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Coach Jewels: Yes, exactly. And that's a really good point. I mean, in general, just simple somatics is actually processing the story without telling the story.

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Coach Jewels: So now, it's really really powerful, especially working with my clients, who would be like, you know, going into the story like No tomorrow. But that's what I kind of get them

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Coach Jewels: feel and understand

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Coach Jewels: that. No, I don't need to tell the story, and I just guide them through the body channels

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Coach Jewels: to process

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Coach Jewels: what's going on there

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Coach Jewels: and then they feel better.

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Coach Jewels: And I'm like, Okay, did you notice how we didn't even talk about your story?

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Coach Jewels: Oh, yeah, we didn't.

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Coach Jewels: And you already feel better

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Coach Jewels: and nothing else changed. You still live in the same house, still married to the same guy, still go to the same work.

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Coach Jewels: and this is where, like their moment of realization, comes up like, Oh.

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Coach Jewels: oh, because they are trying to fix, because what we're trying to do from a human mind, which is very limited.

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Coach Jewels: We're just trying to fix. That's why we got used to the idea. If I think enough.

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Coach Jewels: then somehow it gets fixed.

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Coach Jewels: That's why we get stuck in the loop of the story. And essentially like we go around the circle, which is basically the same.

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Coach Jewels: But the other model I like to think about

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Coach Jewels: nautilus. So it's the point is here. And as you bring other channels, you're just expanding.

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Coach Jewels: And that's the whole point. It's contract, expand, contract, expand, contract, expand everything in our body in a system works on the principle of contract, expand, contract, expand.

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Coach Jewels: So that's why it's our ability to contract.

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Coach Jewels: and not with the thought that it would never happen again, that I would feel angry.

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Coach Jewels: But like, do I have enough tools? Do I understand? Enough so that I can expand again.

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Coach Jewels: because again living with a closed heart.

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Coach Jewels: it hurts.

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Coach Jewels: But when you're there constantly every day, and nobody kind of shows you how it could be different. And you don't believe it could be different.

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Coach Jewels: You just like that. Do you feel it's normal, like.

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Coach Jewels: I mean, I did this for years, and I thought it was normal. But I didn't know any other way, and my body wasn't experiencing any other way right

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Coach Jewels: until I started

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Coach Jewels: to open up and

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Coach Jewels: experience understand? And then suddenly, it's like, Oh, my God.

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Coach Jewels: I can feel safe.

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Coach Jewels: And I can create that.

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Coach Jewels: That's freedom.

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Coach Jewels: That's liberation.

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Coach Jewels: That's like, yeah, I don't need to accomplish more. I already have everything, and I think that's the journey for all of us, at least, how I see it from the spiritual perspective is that our journey is to come back to love, that we are.

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Coach Jewels: Yeah.

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Lindsay Ford: I love that all right. Where can people find you?

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Coach Jewels: Yeah. Sorry. Yes, I do have an Instagram account, and it's Jules underscore coaching.

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Coach Jewels: So it's JEWE. LS. It's like a precious stone. So my husband named me this way. So and I do have a website which is jewel without s jewelcoaching.com.

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Coach Jewels: So. And of course, I'm on Facebook, you know Jules Lamb, which is LAMM.

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Lindsay Ford: I will put all those links in the show notes. Thank you so much for being here. I really really appreciated this conversation. Jules.

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Coach Jewels: Thank you so much, Lindsay, for having me, and I hope it's gonna be helpful for some of you audience, because feeling free is

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Coach Jewels: contagious and.

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Lindsay Ford: It's everything.